A standard poodle seems to be driving the Yaris in front of me.

I thought American Sentences would lead to real poems, but no.

Saw a guy walking down State Street in Hurricane dressed like a chicken.

Wrong-way crash. I drag my lifeboat to the scene. There are no survivors.

My lifeboat believes
in water, what it can do,
not what it doesn’t.

I brought my lifeboat to the wrong ocean. The water spat it at me.

I’m stuck. The ship is sinking. I brought a lifeboat, but it’s the wrong one.

I turn the lights on in my house clockwise so time doesn’t go backwards.

My mind is a wild turkey scaling a basalt ridge without its flock.

To avoid writing poems, I’m rejuvenating my throw pillows.

I washed all my walls today because who can write poems with dirty walls?

Me: I only get seventeen syllables? Screw that. I’m outta here.

Jon turned on the heat, so now I have to sing Glenn Frey’s “The Heat Is On.”

Dreams:

Walked down a long peer and saw you’d turned into a drug lord. I said hi.

I decided to marry you because I liked your dogs. They were small.

I dreamed the best American Sentence but forgot it when I woke.

It went, like, something something something something something something something.

It’s strange how little I have to say when I have finite syllables.

Feces-covered toilet plunger left in hotel hallway. Good morning.

Tomorrow, we see the doctor but today we bird at Utah Lake.

I was with people in my dreams last night and cannot remember them.

Something good, a party maybe, or something bad. I can’t remember.

Whatever it was I left it, then went back to it. The dream, I mean.

I like my body right now, enough, the functionality of it.

When we get back home, I’ll write real poems, not just these bullshit sentences.

Back is filler in that last sentence, which is why it’s total bullshit.

American Sentences can make me say things weird or not at all.

I’ll get some good ones out of this. I just know it. Me of big, fat faith.

Not everything fits into poems. Not everything fits in the world.

I sort of like that last American Sentence, but I don’t trust it.

I guess that’s the deal. Do I trust myself in language and in the world?

Good morning, we scare each other, on the other side of fear is love.

Butter, my rubber chicken, got a plastic cat dressed as a chicken.

Butter is also plastic, not rubber, but I haven’t told her yet.

So many tall, beautiful people here you could put them all on cakes.

My sleep score last night was dude what do you even think you were doing.

I forgot to pack shoes: I came in slippers and must live in slippers.

Gotta hit the road for a medical vacay these days in Utah.

File under Make American Healthcare Inaccessible Again.

At least we’ve put some miles between us and the Utah measles outbreak.

And I got this rubber chicken who loves me more than politicians.

I found my boots: Now, I have my boots, slippers, and a rubber chicken.

I named the rubber chicken Butter and held her as I slept. She squeaks.

Butter is filling me with microplastics, I’m sure, but also love.

Olivia Newton-John’s “Magic” wakes me from sleep in the hotel.

How the song found me in Provo, I’ll never know: some kind of magic.

Make America Sacred Again spray-painted on a pink trailer.

In Provo, Utah, with nothing but slippers and a rubber chicken.

Telling someone you feel emotionally unsafe around them because of their language and behavior isn’t a dangerous thing to say in general or to a white man in this day and age. If someone tells you that’s the case, they aren’t listening to you. They aren’t hearing you. They are reacting in a way that’s most likely in keeping with the things that made you feel emotionally unsafe around them in the first place.

I’ve been spelling tripartite tripartate and pronouncing it tripartate for more than thirty years is how I am.

I can do whatever I want in a poem, more so than in the world.

I have outgrown my underwear is how I am.

I’m looking at Bill Knott’s poetry archive and thinking what’s the point we’re all going to die is how I am.

When we fail to recognize sanism and ableism in all its forms, we fail to protect ourselves and each other.

I can’t keep attempting to raise consciousness in my local community, online, and in poetry circles to the point of having medical episodes and mental-health destabilization so others can keep catching up and catching up and catching up … but never actually do. I’m tired. Literally sick and tired.

Give us ribbety or give us death. — Sign at No Kings Protest

Ren Wilding is an astounding poet. Reading their work makes me feel like someone’s cracked my chest open and inserted a better heart.

Him: If someone does something wrong in poetry, you need to name them publicly to warn others.

Also Him: I’m afraid you’re going to say something about me that hurts my writing career.

Me: I’m going to have a nice day.

My Intestines: Not so fast.

A group of frogs can be called an army, a chorus, or a colony. I call a group of frogs a democracy.

I used to want to be the cylindrical container that shot through the pneumatic tube at the bank. I also wanted to be the money inside the container. Anything to not be human.

I made a bunch of big decisions, I’m in the bed, and the life partner is bringing me no-bake cookies, ice cream, and caramel corn is how I am. My therapist said this is OK. I’m not so sure.

I stole the last Zevia in the house from the life partner is how I am.

I’d rather be too soft for this world than too hard.

I’m eating caramel corn while lying in bed with my dog on me is how I am.

We can be born after we’re born, and it doesn’t need to happen in a religious framework.

The Harvest Moon Supermoon and the Waning Gibbous Moon are stealing my dreams. I need those dreams. They’re for me, not for various and sundry moons.

Half of what you’ve done has already been done before and by half I mean all.

The life partner has informed me that he’s no longer angry with me. We just woke up. We haven’t even interacted today.

Your work matters, what you do in the world matters, and you matter. Thank you all for what you create, what you share, and for your kindness.  

The white-crowned sparrows have arrived for the winter, which means joy has taken up residence in this desert.

I just thought about baby animals, and I’m suddenly very happy.

When I see nothing but darkness, teach me to see the dark. When I hear nothing but darkness, teach me to hear the dark. When I feel nothing but darkness, teach me to feel the dark. When I realize I am darkness, teach me to love the dark that I am. The darkness of my body. The darkness of my mind. The darkness I came from and will return to. The darkness that is all that is.

I would really love to be in a room where I feel wanted, welcome, like I don’t have to hide essential parts of myself, where I don’t have to listen to things that are painful and othering, and where I can speak in full voice without shame and trepidation.

Poets who see folks with psychotic disorders as terrible people can fuck all the way off. Poets who stand up and teach that kind of shit can fuck off even more.

When you think you’re the destination, but you’re just the obstacle.

I love a good fight on cuneiform tablets.

The only thing worse than having wet hair is having wet hair in a new place.

Your cracks are how the universe enters you.

I just googled what is a sand time thing called is how I am.